It HAS been long! On my last post I sincerely apologized for my absence on the blog and there I went again going M.I.A. Sigh. A LOT has been going on since I last left you guys and it has been really heavy to manage but I’m glad I can come back having made it through to chat with you guys. Again I say thank you to my faithful readers who have been constantly checking in on me. Whether it be to ask for a new post or to ask how I’m doing I thank you all I love you guys very much <3!
It has been extremely rough at home for the past month. On the 28th of April 2016, the strongest and most loving woman my husband, his father and his brother’s knew was laid to rest. For me, she was the World’s BEST Mother-In-Law! Losing the biggest strength in a household is one of the hardest thing to deal with. It’s hard accepting what has happened, it’s hard adjusting your life to live without that person and its really hard moving on.
For some time I was angry, angry of the fact that she was so young (58 years), angry that her youngest who’s now graduating wouldn’t have his mom there to cheer him on and let him know how proud she is of him, angry that someone with such an amazing personality, cheerful spirit and such a giving heart had to go and so many wicked persons get to remain, angry that she was taken from her family. Just like any human being I couldn’t understand the term ‘she’s gone’, it just didn’t make sense to me. I felt like she just went out and she was going to be back later. But, when they lowered the coffin that’s when reality hit me.
Comforting my husband and being a shoulder for him has not been easy. There’s really not much I can do but just be there at his side and listen to him whenever he feels like talking about her. She has raised him up into the amazing, hardworking man that he is today and I will do my BEST to continue taking care of him and praying for him just as she did. We’re all broken, the morning of her death we sat around with our heads in space. We didn’t know what to do next, how to feel or what to think but with God paving the way for us we managed to and have a stress free burial. To the wonderful staff at the OP Allen Funeral Home we cannot thank you enough for your sincere assistance. To all our loved ones who called or visited we thank you all so very much for being the support we desperately need. We kindly ask you guys to keep us in prayer as we go day by day seeking strength from our Heavenly Father.
“A light we have is gone, a voice we loved is stilled and a place is vacant in the home which can never be filled. We have to mourn the loss of one whom we would’ve loved to keep but God who surely loved her best has finally made her sleep. After a lifetime of her love and joy and music to fill our ears, God leaves these wondrous memories to help us through our tears.” – Anonymous
Until next time!